at a loss
you lie down straight
needing a word with the universe
palms up
eyes closed
breath quiet
you're resting in a big invisible
heart-shaped cradle
sketched with a light brush
imagining
your mystical twin
by the look of her dressed
in a martial arts suit
onyx black
blade-sharp trousers
open kimono jacket revealing
the softness of her cleavage
on her feet trainer-style ballerinas
you see her through the looking glass
of your own concentration
and hers
the onyx black suit quiver
pouring rain as will power
until now you never saw her
only sensed her with your bodymind
glimpsed her
smiling rose-lipped
at you painter's antics
looking lovely relaxed
but focused
clearly at work in her work clothes
standing holding keeping
while you're cavorting
she's the black behind the rainbow
you're wallowing in
she's the robust alpha point
behind your expansive expressionism
you feel blue
you see red
sometimes you're green or yellow
or even in the pink
but she's your steady
standing in the middle
propping up the rainbow
standing sentinel under its arch
absolutely absorbing
your crazy quasar-like
colour frenzy
into her onyx black
just holding the black wholeness
giving it space
not spectral but black ground
your background
holding the sacred snake
holding the alpha black
lifting the rainbow high
as an arch to the sky
lifting it like a string of pearls
like a bridge
like a baby
like a treasure
like a trophy
she's your foundation
you're her foundling
leaving her for now
slowly returning to your room
you know she'll always be there
steady
like black
leaving her to do her work
standing like a pillar
quivering black vigour running
through space without a sound
you feel grounded
safe to create
Vera Kelgart (with self-healed Lemuria crystal) 2018
