early morning tired
didn't sleep enough
you want to stay a bit longer
in the baby carrier of night
make yourself return to yourself
the sleepy girl in the bed
curling up under your duvet
closing your eyes again
slipping inside
fading night
imagining
you younger
in a red silk princess dress
sprinkled with ladybird spots
there's a place
a place far away
you used to sleep on the roof
near the upside down bowl of heaven
ultramarine indigo turquoise blue
pierced with stars
being little
mum and dad carrying you
the blue pyjamas you remember
but in the daytime
did you really jump about
like a red silk butterfly
tutu swirling around your brown legs
now everybody's asking you
what do you want to do
you're good at languages
good at maths
you care for people
but most of all you want
to return to that roof
want to shape smooth
ultramarine turquoise indigo
bowls out of the firmament
shaping peace in blue containers
small domes made from glazed clay
or braided from soft textiles
smooth and rounded
as safe sleep on a roof
with mum and dad carrying you
and other sleepers breathing
safe wavelengths in the night
the red silk princess dress
may not be a real memory
but your original blueprint
or it may be the future you
a sibyl enfolded in red silk
holding blue earth in your hands
like a crystal ball
passionate peace incarnate
you come walking
red silk swirling
converting
all armies to armistice
sibyl swathed in red silk
speaking to warriors
turning them to peace
while your hands are shaping blue
into heavenly bowls for people
to catch their own stars
feeling energized by this image
you jump out of bed
hurry to school
listening to music
Vera Kelgart (with fairy frost crystal) 2018
